rewind and overwrite

how on earth do you un-say sarcastic utterances that sound so absurdly idiotic in hindsight, without sounding inane?

this question has been plaguing me all day long.

i woke up rather early today and found several text messages in my inbox. two of them originated from the same person who was basically breaking a long-standing promise, and in the next breath asking me if i could lend her some money ASAP (*frown*); 2 more messages asking me for favors (other folks), with matching timeframe — right away (*eyebrow lifts half an inch higher*); the last one was an inquiry regarding a delicate matter, which required at least few minutes' reflection…

to make this tale short and sweet, let's just say things went downhill from there.

then out of the blue my celphone rang (a relative). by this time my temper was already starting to fray at the edges. without meaning to, i actually snapped at this person mid-sentence.

by the time i realized what i had done, the words were already out of my mouth. obviously stunned, the caller rang off claiming an emergency meeting or something. i just stood there, with my mouth hanging open and feeling like a criminal. the worst thing was i felt inert, powerless even, to undo the damage.

i knew that that the best thing i could have done was to call her back immediately and apologize, but that would have meant long explanations, which were frankly beyond me at the moment. oh well, i could always buzz her later and grovel properly, i told myself half-convincingly. but the fact was… the longer i waited, the harder it got to find the right words

*sigh* sometimes i wish i had Adam Sandler's remote control (in Click), so i could simply Rewind and Overwrite scenes like these.