for some reason my mood usually takes an upswing when it’s raining. maybe it’s because rainy days tend to slow things down. the gloomy sky, far from weighing me down, usually stirs me to reach for my pen (to write) or pencil (to sketch) and let creative juices take over.
today was no different. despite my avowed plans to go out, i just sat there and watched as raindrops splattered against the window pane. bemused, i reached for my pencil and began sketching. for a few moments everything seemed perfect: agreeable weather, excellent mood, and after what seemed like a long time, i was drawing again.
and then i glanced down at my work.
suddenly laughter filled the room — a strange, unfamiliar sound. then i realized it was me. (it’s been a long time since i had laughed like that.)
“ugh! what in heaven’s name is this?” i gasped as i peered at my half-finished drawing. surely i can’t have gotten this bad?
my masterpiece, which looks like a monochromatic doodle of yesterday’s leftover food, stared back at me like an accusing finger. sheesh, even a fifth grader could do better than this. at least nobody’s here to see my pathetic attempt, i consoled myself as i tore the paper hurriedly.
conclusion: sometimes it’s not about the mood or the atmosphere. when you suck, laughter (or a philosophical shrug) is the best way to soften the blow..
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i watched The Bourne Ultimatum yesterday. assassin extraordinaire Jason Bourne really kicks ass. when he dispatches his enemies he barely even breaks into a sweat. notably, however, his epic struggle with another superlative hitman (Desh) really pushed him to his limits.
the only bone i have to pick with this slick action flick is that it has strayed so far from the book (written by Robert Ludlum) on which it is based. heck, there’s not even any mention about the real-life notorious hitman Carlos, who’s supposed to be the main reason why the identity for Jason Bourne was created in the first place.
I’m in my best element when it’s raining…as long as I’m inside the house. Why did you not post your sketch? Sometimes, we are our own worst critic.
Posted by TPS at August 8, 2007, 1:45 pmjust bloghoping! but u got a nice sketch back there..
Posted by qimadra at August 8, 2007, 3:16 pmI love rainy season. The only time I can cover up my well sculpted body. hehehe
Dude, I’d like to see some of your drawings? Post them.
nice to know i’m not the only one who feels alive when it’s raining
. as for my artistic ‘pretensions,’ i’m more comfortable with charcoal and watercolor. it’s been some time since i used these media though so i’m terribly rusty… the kindest description for my work would be “basically an eyesore.”
maybe when i can produce something that won’t embarrass me too much i’ll post it here. for now i will spare you the pain of trying to come up with a diplomatic way to describe my work
qimadra, i wish i could claim this artwork as mine but the thing is it’s not. i just swiped this from the net because it complimented my topic — rainy, gloomy, yet luminous
Posted by onyxx at August 8, 2007, 5:57 pmi’ve given up drawing a looong time ago, after my school sent me to a district art competition only to realize i’m the worst kid in the whole town. hehe.
but then i had one weird period when i was in high school. for two full weeks i was able to replicate all the looney characters in great detail. i truly think i did a good job that up until now those sketches remain in my closet. but the artistic mood lasted really short. haha
don’t worry, i guess you’re still a better artist than me.
Posted by alia at August 8, 2007, 10:25 pmi want to see the drawing!
I’m sure you have good if not great drawings that you’re hiding from us..
I want to see your drawings too.
rain drops evoke a sentimental train of thought. it’s the artist’s world coming into full form. ay naku, nagiging poetic tuloy ako. hm… sana post mo din ung doodles na yan.
Posted by badoodles at August 11, 2007, 3:35 pm@alia, i guess we all have our moments. according to my my sister, i have the artistic temperament but not the talent
*ouch*
to daisy, kai and badoodles, sorry guys i already tore it up. i couldn’t bear to look at it. i’m working on something else though… maybe as soon as i get the nerve i’ll post it (when no one’s looking). thanks for taking notice though
Posted by onyxx at August 11, 2007, 7:47 pmI had read the book (Bourne Supremacy and Ultimatum,loved them both) but still doesnt have the courage to watch the movie,afraid to be disappointed.As you said there was never a mention about Carlos,so who was the villain.please dont say it was Colkin.
Posted by dhey at August 25, 2007, 11:46 pmhi dhey, thanks for dropping by.
it’s been years since i had read all 3 bourne books (identity, supremacy, ultimatum) so i can no longer recall the names of the bad guys. in the film, the bad guys are this Intelligence bureaucrat and his slimy pals who are trying to cover their collective asses (they wanted to bury the Blackfriars program because of its explosive nature), which means that they had to wipe out David Webb — aka Bourne.
although the movie has its exciting moments, IMO it lacks the the heart-pounding urgency and life-and-death thrills of Ludlum’s books. they did not even bother with marie st jacques (who’s supposed to be alive!) and added characters who were not even in the books. i guess they just wanted the movies to feel up-to-date because the days when Carlos the Jackal’s name struck terror among his intended targets are long gone. a pity, really
Posted by onyxx at August 28, 2007, 11:36 ami beg to disagree..
it’s quite a cool work, i must say
not bad at all onyxx, but i know you could do better than that. san na yng charcoal portrait that you promised to do decades ago?
heheh, ginagawa pa yung charcoal pencil na pang-drawing ko
Posted by onyxx at September 19, 2007, 9:58 pm
When I was in grade school and high school, I can replicate drawings rather passably (for school projects). Pero I can’t make one out of scratch. Totally lack imagination, hehe. Now I don’t think I can even make a doodle. Hay, buti ka pa, you have time na for these things.
Posted by zarine at August 8, 2007, 11:42 am